Wide-awake at silly o'clock

This is what my meds are doing to me!  It's nearly 1am and I have been at work all day, came home really tired, went to see the horses and did the feeds and poo-picking and stuff.  Had a lovely dinner and relaxed evening.  And now I cannot sleep.

I have sorted out the storage problem with my phone, set up a new iTunes account, sent emails to various people, offered my services to a charity event, backed up the phone and done some other bits and bobs, and I am still no closer to sleeping than I was two hours ago.

Oh, I got an email to say that I had won in a prize draw that I entered at Burghley.  So I have also emailed them to arrange delivery of the prize :)

I know that come the morning I will be so tired that I will have problems getting up!  Aaaarghhhh

Anyone know any sure-fire ways of getting to sleep?

I Did It

I have signed up for the degree course - go me :)  It's a 4 year, part time, distance learning BA (Hons) degree in photography with the University of Hertfordshire through the Interactive Design Institute (IDI).
Eeeeeeeeeeeeeek
*wanders off in search of alcohol*

Tired dot com

Still so very tired, still not sleeping very well, still getting bad headaches...

On a bit of a downer at the moment and feeling sorry for myself.  I had thought the new meds were helping, but after a week or so the headaches were coming more frequently than before, and more strongly.  I've been reducing some other meds which have been helping me sleep, so now although I am so tired, I just can't drop off.

I'm back to the doctor this week so hopefully she will adjust what I am taking.

Younger son is back at school now after the summer break.  Year 10 so it's the beginning of his GCSEs .  Hoping he will just get on with the school work and fingers crossed that it'll be uneventful!

Horses both doing well.  Hunter has very obviously been beaten in the past and he is terrified of the farrier.  So we are working on his confidence with having his feet touched.  It was so awful to see him so scared but he is trying so hard to trust us.  You can see it in his eyes.  He knows we wont hurt him but the memories must be there still.

I have been debating whether I am capable of a photography degree.  I did start one, well started a module which could have  (should have) been the start of a degree, but "life got in the way".  I have been looking again and have found a part time distance learning one which looks good.  But with my head I'm not sure that I could do it.  Really need a course in self-confidence I think....

Sue x

No change

Things are pretty much the same.  Still hot, although not as hot as the end of July.

We had ten days in Malta which was lovely - hot and relaxing.

While we were away there were some pretty big thunderstorms, which means that at least there is some grass in the paddocks :)

Lara is looking good, you wouldn't know she had had such a bad winter to see her now.  Fingers crossed it continues...

Hunter is still his usual adorable self.  Scared of everything despite being 16.3hh.

Migraine-headaches are still with me.  I have just gone on to some new meds which we hope will help.  I'm so sensitive to noise when I have a headache now, I realise how lucky I have been not to have suffered from these before.  Once we get the balance of meds right I'm hoping it won't be too much of an issue....

Sue xx

Don't Panic....

...there's nothing to worry about. The neurologist said that he is happy that there's nothing sinister going on, and that I just need to rest and not overdo things.  He also said that TBIs can lead to occurrences of migraines even in people who have never had them before.  So if my current meds don't help, then there are other meds I can try.

It's still unbelievably hot at the moment.  In the 30s most days.  Loving it, but it means that the grass in the paddocks isn't doing much.  Poor Hunter has been on hay and hard feed again!  I think he only had about 3 weeks of grass in total.  I'm off to school him again later - husband and I schooled him over jumps at the weekend, after doing a bit of Parelli.  He loves to jump and needs no encouragement.  I simply stood in the middle of the school and told him which way to go !

All I want to do though at the moment is go to sleep

xx

Hot weather

The hot weather has arrived at last.  It's fab but the paddocks have little or no grass in them so Hunter is back on hay!  He's doing brilliantly.  We've done the 7 games, so we are using them in the school to move around objects and people and the like.  Not long before I will be riding him again - yay!

I've ridden Lara in the meantime - even had a lesson on her today.  It was great, one of those lessons where it all clicks into place.  I was so happy!

I have to go to the neurologist next week - my headaches are still troubling me.  Especially when I'm tired, and I also find my words get muddled and I get very forgetful.  There's probably nothing wrong - just making sure.

xx

Still progressing

Hi

Not been in for a while.  Nothing has changed really, although my husband is a year older.

Still getting monster headaches, so I have had to increase my meds.  Now that is fine, but the meds make me sooooooo sleeeeeeeepy.

I've been to the physio and have started a course of acupuncture to try and relieve the pain and stiffness and mobility problems in my left shoulder.

And I am trying to work more and more.  My work has been incredibly tolerant of my absences since my last fall, and I am trying to be in the office more now, although balancing that against the headaches is quite stressful in itself.

I have continued doing Parelli with Hunter.  We have gone through all seven games, and are now trying to make these more interesting by adding objects!  Today we used the Big Green Ball, which didn't faze him one bit !   I am loving building this relationship and you can see the trust growing each day.

I have also had some orders from the photoshoots I did recently, which is always good for building your confidence.

Onwards

Sue x